Yup, October 31st. I should be psyched and I guess I kind of am... I'm 16 now and I'm not "allowed" to go trick or treating, cuz of some unknown reason to me, I think until you are allowed to drink legally you should be able to trick or treat ..... I just hate thinking that I'm gettng older.... bah...
Anyways, The more important reason I'm making this journal is for Laura. My friend Laura has H1N1.... she had been working on her to be halloween costume for so long... Its a fricking Alphonse suit made entirely out of cardboard and duct tape. It looks so amazing I cant even tell you. She was so excited.... And now she cant go, and I cant even visit her today cuz I have next to NO immunity to sickness. So please wish Roxas a Happy Halloween Dont worry Roxas,this year may suck but I'm going to make sure you have the Happy Halloween you deserve next year <:]
Try to cheer up my friend, Good health first- Candy later
Lots of love.
-Panda

First off, everyone is sick D: my parents, my brother, my kitty and almost everyone in the school.. i have yet to get sick but i'm sure it wont be long.
Anyways, yesterday was my 16th birthday. Hooray, i suppose
I'm not a big fan of birthdays, i guess you can say that they kinda depress me.. but it wasnt all bad, despite the terrible thoughts of getting older. Fox was very helpful all day... and i got hugs from everyone in my classess (or everyone that is my friend ) lol so that was nice... Kitty was gone all day on a stupid field trip -.-'' but he gave me hugs when he got back. I also got a small compact gateway laptop :3 i love it. havent had a chance to screw with it too much yet, but i will. oh i will >8D But the best part was probably when I talked to my cousin whom i havent talked to in a long time. That was wonderful.
Today, not so good I have art, which sucks ass cuz my crazy hippy teacher wants to make my life a spiralling vortex into the seventh layer of hell... I had a Bio exam (i think i did pretty good tho ) Comm tech (what i'm in right now) which is boring -.-'' annnnd Math next. which guess...
i have a test in. yep.
Ugh. Thank god we have monday off
Toodles.

I just realized that i only really make updates on my journals when I am in a foul mood. Huh. weird.
Anyways; yes, I am in a terrible mood. I'm in comm tech right at this moment...waiting for the bell to ring in like...10 minutes. Just wanted to say to the very few active watchers I have that, I have still been drawing. Hooray? Yeah, kay. BUT I dont enjoy colorng with my hands, tedious and doesnt look good. another problem. my photoshop trial has ended and I dont have cash. (Cant buy it, see?) So if i do post anything new it will most likely be a WIP until I can find a way to get photoshop.
Kay? Good. Now anyways. I dont want to really go into my personal problems atm, but I feel like utter shit, what a surprise eh? Anyways. wish me luck on feeling better. Thanks.
Peace.

School has reared its ugly face once again and I am displeased. But Hey- thats life. What can ya do? It's pretty crap so far but I guess I gotta be optimistic... Anyways, I don't come onto DA much anymore, I am having a self esteem crisis, much more then usual. Everything I do or draw in this case just seems to be so....sub-par. So shitty and bleck. I hate it. I just can't seem to do anything well right now....and I'm wondering if there was a time I ever could lol.
So I'm guessing this will be my last journal entry for quite awhile... And wish me luck on trying to find myself artistically.

Damn, this sucks. The summer went to quick. I know that no one is excited to go back to school but i just take the cake, i LOATH school, completely. Got my schedule.... not happy with it.. I have a lot of problems with it of a personal nature > <'''''''''
Which might ruin my whole year. -sigh- It's gonna suck monkey nuts that's fer true.
I always get so depressed right before school starts too, It's terrible. I'm nervous and i feel sick all the time and just so depressed and worried and..blah, dead x.x'''
I have an awful feeling about grade 11.
On the plus side.....
Is there one?
This summer has been pretty mellow, nice...but mellow. I hung out with my great friend i havent seen in forever, but unfortunately she is now moving to Victoria, so i wont see her....uh...prolly ever again...and i didnt see her a lot to begin with...so that hurts like a stab in the face.
The only plus i can think about is that Joseph and I have celebrated our 15 month anniversary this month Wonderful.
I prolly wont update too much for awhile, wish me luck on not dying in grade 11, tho i doubt it will do anything -.-'''